leave rose tico alone

I don’t have anything to say that isn’t going to be said more eloquently (hopefully) over the coming days. But we should address the things that make us angry, and the things that make us feel sick to our stomachs. We should address the things that we feel like we shouldn’t have to keep addressing.Continue reading “leave rose tico alone”

what if you were already extraordinary?

When I was in the 8th grade, I saw Dead Poets’ Society for the first time, and I felt like I knew who I was supposed to be. I felt completely validated. I had been right all along about the power and importance of books and plays and poetry and following your dreams. I alreadyContinue reading “what if you were already extraordinary?”

the cost of “we,” or oh, loki

Spoilers for Infinity War The need to belong is powerful. I’ve seen Avengers: Infinity War four times now, and there’s one line in particular that makes me sadder and sadder every time I hear it. In the very first scene, Loki– Prince of Asgard, Odinson, Rightful King of Jotunheim, God of Mischief– steps up toContinue reading “the cost of “we,” or oh, loki”

we’ll always have isla nublar, or saying good bye to jurassic park: the ride

    Universal Studios Hollywood just announced that September 3, 2018 will be guests’ last opportunity to ride Jurassic Park: The Ride, and I feel a lot of ways about it.     To be fair, I’ve never ridden Jurassic Park: The Ride at Universal Studios Hollywood. However, I am a devotee of Universal Islands of Adventure’s Jurassic ParkContinue reading “we’ll always have isla nublar, or saying good bye to jurassic park: the ride”

death and raising stakes in the nerd-verse, or holy shit, infinity war comes out tonight

What do we want to happen tonight? When I talk to my friends about Infinity War, we circle back to the same point: Somebody’s going to die. We pick apart everything we’ve put together from trailers, old comic story lines, and articles about each actors’ contract to try to solve the mystery of Who’s GoingContinue reading “death and raising stakes in the nerd-verse, or holy shit, infinity war comes out tonight”

dani & waddles, or the stuffed penguin who loved me

I was a stuffed animal kid. Stuffed animals are the best possible toy. They offer all of the companionship and boundless playing pretend opportunities that dolls do, but they aren’t creepy nor are they an upsetting push on little girls to go ahead and be super pumped about motherhood. Dude, I am three. Can IContinue reading “dani & waddles, or the stuffed penguin who loved me”

when what is true isn’t what is real

It feels just like a normal hangover. I am puffy, guilty, thirsty, and desperately wishing that I could take back all of the things I said yesterday, even if I meant them. Being in therapy or talking to a psychiatrist on any day that isn’t One of Those Days makes me feel like a liar.Continue reading “when what is true isn’t what is real”

captain underpants and the particularly poignant plot of precious partnership, or the joys of friendship & collaboration

I’ve been in a pretty deep depressive hole for the last few weeks. I don’t want to do anything, and I hate myself for it. I feel like I should want to do things– what’s the point in existing if we’re not doing things, right?–, so I judge myself to be a big, lazy idiotContinue reading “captain underpants and the particularly poignant plot of precious partnership, or the joys of friendship & collaboration”

here’s your chance, do your dance at the SAD JAM. all right.

When I was seven or eight years old, my dad signed me up for rec league basketball. My parents were both high school and college athletes, so they thought that it was really important for my little brother and I to participate in team sports. Before starting basketball, I went through a few thoroughly unremarkableContinue reading “here’s your chance, do your dance at the SAD JAM. all right.”

always a kylo, never a rey

I don’t ever intend to make New Year’s resolutions. I have a pretty obsessive personality, so sitting down to list out all of the ways in which I judge I should improve myself in January feels like a bad idea. I don’t need a holiday devoted to contemplating the passage of time PLUS enthusiastic self-improvement.Continue reading “always a kylo, never a rey”

“you got cute in my star wars!!” or, in defense of porgs

Less-than-creative/progressive minds out there might call me the nerdy version of the much maligned “basic bitch.” I like the cute, comfy trappings that accompany geekdom. Like, sure. Of course I’m here for the gripping, epic stories and well-written, complex characters. I’m here for adventure and space and swashbuckling and dinosaurs and saving the world andContinue reading ““you got cute in my star wars!!” or, in defense of porgs”

throwback video essay: a first reaction to the force awakens teaser, 2014

Facebook reminded me this morning that it’s been three years to the day since the very first teaser for The Force Awakens offered us our very first glimpses of Rey, Finn, Poe, BB-8, and all of our new far-far-away besties. What. A. DAY. So, my reaction to that trailer was… intense? I had the opportunity toContinue reading “throwback video essay: a first reaction to the force awakens teaser, 2014”