achievements great & small

I’m working on re-calibrating my current definition of “enough,” specifically as it applies to my own expectations of myself. On paper, I’m living a life that would make my younger self jump up and down with glee; I work full-time for a professional Shakespeare company, and I still have time almost every week to spendContinue reading “achievements great & small”

on manta rays, helping out, and seeing your own sunshine

My birthday’s coming up, so I’m having a pretty reflective and contemplative week. How did I get here? Where am I going next? Have I done enough at this stage of my life? What would enough even look like? I don’t have answers to any of these questions, and that generally fills me with aContinue reading “on manta rays, helping out, and seeing your own sunshine”

random renaissance reptiles

The Renaissance Festival is where I found myself and where I lost myself. There. That’s the dorkiest sentence I’ve ever written. The foundation of my heart and identity is wrapped up in the turkey leg scented, sun scorched, dusty and gravelly hills of a place out of time. Most of my happiest and saddest stories beginContinue reading “random renaissance reptiles”

please no talking or texting (for real, i’m begging you)

Going to the movies is my favorite thing in the world. From the time I was a little kid seeing Beauty & the Beast with my mom all the way through going to see Guardians of the Galaxy, Vol. 2 for the second time yesterday afternoon, nothing feels more exhilarating to me than going toContinue reading “please no talking or texting (for real, i’m begging you)”

chasing tortoises (and courage) in camden town

At the Camden Town tube station,  a helpful sign promised me that the ZSL London Zoo was somewhere to my right. Three different streets jutted out in a right-ish direction from the station, though, and I still didn’t understand how to figure out which street I was on in London. Which right was the rightContinue reading “chasing tortoises (and courage) in camden town”

thank you, carrie

Throughout the winter of 2016, my brain had the capacity to obsess over exactly two things: mental health and Star Wars. In late November, I was unable to anticipate anything that wasn’t either opening night of Rogue One or my first appointment with a psychiatrist. Here was the timeline. On Wednesday November 30, I performedContinue reading “thank you, carrie”

moar coffee pics, plz

Yesterday on the #2 bus, two older dudes sitting behind me started talking about social media. “I don’t get it. People make all these posts, and it’s like… who gives a shit?” All the typical curmudgeonly points were hit. I hung on their every word, hoping to overhear a particularly dumb morsel of opinion thatContinue reading “moar coffee pics, plz”

“let the sun shine in”

Every Friday morning, I volunteer at the aquarium. There’s a little, under-the-weather pancake tortoise currently hanging out in the treatment room where I collect water samples. Besides his habitat, there’s a little sign that reads, “Medication: Sunshine.” I would kill for that prescription. Right now I take one, decent-sized pill every morning. I have no ideaContinue reading ““let the sun shine in””

adventures in self-care, vol 1.

Yesterday I took myself out on a date. Nice Voice waltzed into the room out of nowhere, all dashing and electric. “Darling!” She cried. “Put on something nice. I’m going to take you out for an afternoon on the town!” When Nice Voice rolls into town, she’s pretty hard to resist. She’s just so… well,Continue reading “adventures in self-care, vol 1.”

a love letter for a monster

My Netflix show right now is Penny Dreadful. I’m a few episodes into the third season, and I’m already sad that my time with my new spooky pals is so close to the end. I’ve always loved a good ensemble series; it makes me so happy to be the spectator to fictional friend groups. FromContinue reading “a love letter for a monster”

the show goes ever on and on: a nerd’s case for the oscars

In keeping with my resolution to spend time among things that made me really happy before I started to doubt and dislike myself, I’m really stoked about the Oscars this year. When I was a kid, staying awake to watch the Academy Awards was one of my favorite nights of the year. By middle school,Continue reading “the show goes ever on and on: a nerd’s case for the oscars”