The World you have entered was created by The Walt Disney Company and is dedicated to Hollywood—not a place on a map, but a state of mind that exists wherever people dream and wonder and imagine, a place where illusion and reality are fused by technological magic. We welcome you to a Hollywood that neverContinue reading “star tours feels or: a super secret sneak peek AT SOMETHING COOL”
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on a tuesday evening: a self-portrait
Bitten down, chipped teal nails, shaking slightly (always) against the keys, against the Spotify app, against the mug of cocoa. (with the big marshmallows) A set of long Muppet-arms, patchy and dry, because I do not fucking understand how to appropriately moisturize. (A foul mouth, apparently. Fuck. Fucking fucking fuck. It’s just a satisfying angryContinue reading “on a tuesday evening: a self-portrait”
then you say “go slow”
(I can’t.) Lying in my bed, I hear the clock tick and think of youCaught up in circlesConfusion is nothing new I feel sometimes like I am running out of things to say: (Hello again. My name is Dani, still, I think. You can also call me Daniel. I love Star Wars and I writeContinue reading “then you say “go slow””
i am not throwing away my shots (i think)
Y’all, I’m going to be totally honest: I’m not convinced I did my shot correctly last week and I AM STRESSED ABOUT IT. I’m looking forward to the day my hands don’t shake and my heart doesn’t race. When I don’t wince at all the fresh, red stretchmarks on my belly and just accept myContinue reading “i am not throwing away my shots (i think)”
on panic
No one ever told me how panic attacks can be quiet. How you can wake up in a beam of sunlight with a soft cat draped across your ankles and you can still feel a little like you’re dying. I feel a little like I’m dying. Nothing happened. Nothing new. I read the story againContinue reading “on panic”
january 2021 bi, bi, non-bi: stroll into the sunshine
Be forewarned: Parts of this are gross. Love y’all! Happy January Halloween, everybody! Last Halloween was supposed to be my first ever expedition to Universal Studios’ famous Halloween Horror Nights, but, of course, that didn’t quite work out as intended. So, in honor of my dead and decaying dreams, here’s a bunch of nonsense aboutContinue reading “january 2021 bi, bi, non-bi: stroll into the sunshine”
radical acceptance and spider-man
At my last full-time job, one of my dearest co-workers and I used to spend HOURS debating whom everyone on our goofy little staff was within the Marvel Cinematic Universe. And guys, it mattered SO MUCH TO ME. While my friend Andy was inarguably Iron Man from day one, my MCU role was always inContinue reading “radical acceptance and spider-man”
rey (ben), these are your first steps.
I am having all these dreams since the appointment. Sometimes I have the opportunity to say out loud “I am transgender” to my late grandmother and she just hugs me. Sometimes my face contorts in the mirror before my eyes and I look as handsome as Adam Driver. Sometimes I am brave and truly whollyContinue reading “rey (ben), these are your first steps.”
leaving hogwarts, part III
(because the song is playing on my Wrapped playlist again and I never have the heart to skip it. thank you, mr. williams.) Here is what no one can take away from me: (No, not those who actively seek to drain me nor those who just unknowingly leech my sparkle.) I am a Hufflepuff. ThatContinue reading “leaving hogwarts, part III”
christmas 2021: a fantasy
(just a moment to dream, thank you:) I wake up not in a hotel in Beaverton, Oregon, but in a super-nerdily decorated apartment in Chicago, Iowa City, New York City, somewhere in Rhode Island… It will just be my apartment, for the first time. (Don’t ask me how I can afford it on a gradContinue reading “christmas 2021: a fantasy”
i don’t know. i was sad. (AGAIN)
CW: struggles with internalized transphobia and low body image. I feel fucking exhausted. My stomach hurts and I feel fucking exhausted. I know I said I wasn’t going to do this again for a little while, but when have I ever been the model of restraint? Things hurt today and I want to get itContinue reading “i don’t know. i was sad. (AGAIN)”
dani(el)
(This is the last time for a minute, I promise. I think we’re all ready for a bit of a break.) I don’t know what happens next, but I sure thought about it a lot today. I let myself dream big and loud and happy. I swung for the fucking fences: And now it’s timeContinue reading “dani(el)”
