everything’s fine (so why aren’t i?)

I woke up at 7:30 this morning and made some blueberry pancakes from a box. And they were good. I even had whipped cream to top them with instead of maple syrup which, in my opinion, is the right way to do fruity pancakes.  There is pumpkin spice creamer in my coffee in my veryContinue reading “everything’s fine (so why aren’t i?)”

what it might have been like:

I am thinking tonight of my summer at the Governor’s Honors Program. Thinking of how we all spent Field Day sitting together under a tree, talking about movies and about poetry. I am thinking of how sincerely I loved you and how differently it could have been if I’d known. “Daniel,” I might have introducedContinue reading “what it might have been like:”

(almost a year later) the rise of skywalker

Fine. (Let me be abundantly clear: I still hate this movie.) … I think. a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away: I saw Rise of Skywalker for the first and (until very recently) only time on opening night last December. And I’ve written about this before, but I needed it too much.Continue reading “(almost a year later) the rise of skywalker”

i’m gay: (just a little thing)

Sort of like a poem, really. Originally posted to Patreon on Halloween 2020: I have spoken it before with uncertainty and fear. Um, I think I might be gay? I have spoken it as an in-advance apology, still figuring things out. I’m really worried I might just be gay. I have whispered it joyfully intoContinue reading “i’m gay: (just a little thing)”

practicing my grad school essay

Dear Grad School: I haven’t known where I wanted to be or what I wanted to do for quite some time. When I went to college for the first time back in 2007, I honestly picked Creative Writing as my major because the faculty was supportive and kind and the senior seminar snacks were amazingContinue reading “practicing my grad school essay”

my very half-baked pitch for a hex girls animated series

Okay, so: The Hex Girls: Underworld Tour coming to Netflix in some manner of the distant future? Yeah? New dream? Is this why I’m trying to go to grad school? HELL YES. First of all, maybe you don’t remember the greatest band of all time: THE HEX GIRLS. First debuting in Scooby-Doo and the Witch’sContinue reading “my very half-baked pitch for a hex girls animated series”

a promise lives within you now

May it be an evening starShines down upon youMay it be when darkness fallsYour heart will be trueYou walk a lonely roadOh, how far you are from home I think the happiest I’ve ever been in my entire life was when I was in middle school and discovering The Lord of the Rings for theContinue reading “a promise lives within you now”

on halloween costumes

Childhood. Oh, a Disney princess. Fucking every year. No shame, Disney princesses are great. Adolescence. I vividly remember this one Halloween- I think I was 13?- when I decided I HAD TO BE SEXY. A SEXY WITCH. Fuck, how gross is it that 13-year-olds ever feel like they need to be sexy for any reasonContinue reading “on halloween costumes”

i wrote a play

Growing up, my favorite thing about Halloween was the opportunity to watch spooky-themed cartoons all day long. The very best days were when Cartoon Network showed old made-for-TV Scooby-Doo specials. Boo Brothers, The Witch’s Ghost, Zombie Island… all obvious classics. But, for me, there was always one that stood head and spooky shoulders above allContinue reading “i wrote a play”

playwriting playlists and feeling good

I feel like I’m going back up the hill of the roller coaster today after having spent the last couple of days down in the pit, and I AM SO RELIEVED. My stomach is still nervous-upset and I feel far too soft and crumbly to deal with the notes I’ve received on “Monster Girls atContinue reading “playwriting playlists and feeling good”

i’m tired (again, part two? i don’t remember)

CW: Being a fucking idiot. (specifically regarding medication) I love you. Go gently. So, I ran out of my meds… I don’t remember when.* *I’M FIXING THIS TOMORROW, I ABSOLUTELY PROMISE. I KNOW THIS IS BAD.* It’s been over a week. Sometimes I get stubborn about them, see. I don’t want them. I don’t wantContinue reading “i’m tired (again, part two? i don’t remember)”