okay, but for real this time

This isn’t good for me anymore. I am writing myself raw lately, because I am afraid that you will forget about me. (This has always been my biggest fear.) I am double checking my WordPress views and my Facebook likes over and over and over again, because those little thumbs up’s and little hearts feel soContinue reading “okay, but for real this time”

it’s still the same old story… (or: as usual, go to hell, bipolar disorder, okay?)

And it is an old refrain, to be sure: They are just around because they feel sorry for you. They are around because they are worried that you’re going to hurt yourself if you’re alone. They do not enjoy you. They do not love you. You are a burden.  (You said that to me once. IContinue reading “it’s still the same old story… (or: as usual, go to hell, bipolar disorder, okay?)”

bi, bi, non-bi: december feels, and oh, look, i’m talking about walt whitman again

This piece originally performed at The Come Up Show ATL on December 20, 2019.  Greetings, fellow cool kids. So, my name is Dani Herd, and I am bipolar, bisexual, and non-binary, aka “bi, bi, non-bi.” These are my adventures.  Bi #1: I’ve known about the bipolar II the longest. This month is actually the threeContinue reading “bi, bi, non-bi: december feels, and oh, look, i’m talking about walt whitman again”

an important walk i once took

[CW: self-harm] March 8, 2010 I just want to see the gay penguins. Central Park is BIG. I had no idea! I should have known. Didn’t all those joggers and stroller-walkers and assorted predators on Law & Order: SVU make their home in this park? How would a smaller park have possibly contained them all? This homeContinue reading “an important walk i once took”

in which it’s about a month until the rise of skywalker, and, unsurprisingly, i have a lot of feelings

I really hate when things end. I still remember just about everything about where I was when I first saw the initial trailer for Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens. I had been tasked to write about the experience for the Atlanta-based variety show Scene Missing Presents. I remember my heart pounding, my palmsContinue reading “in which it’s about a month until the rise of skywalker, and, unsurprisingly, i have a lot of feelings”

i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much

When I was in grade school, my very sweet and wonderful and supportive teachers used to write things in my yearbook like: “I can’t wait to see you onstage at the Oscars someday!” Which is a very kind thing to write in a theatre dork’s yearbook. But I also kind of bought it, gang. I’veContinue reading “i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much”

in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.

Good news, nerds! runDisney just published the Digital Event Guide for the Star Wars Rival Run Weekend. SOMETHING NEW TO MEMORIZE YAY. The fact that’s the most deeply burned into my brain regarding logistics for the Sunday morning half marathon? The fact that runners are encouraged to be bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and all-aboard official event transportationContinue reading “in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.”

i still don’t know what “turn off the dark” means, though

You can change your mind But you cannot change your heart Your heart knows what you’re hiding Your heart knows where you are I was in about one of the darkest places mentally that I’ve ever been in the night that I saw Spider-Man: Turn Off the Dark on Broadway. First of all: oh, that’sContinue reading “i still don’t know what “turn off the dark” means, though”

oh, snap. am i kind of in love with running?

Guys, I know that running is awful, but I super recommend training for a half-marathon. I’m pretty depressed and anxious right now, and my brain is very nearly drowning in worries about money, food, my job, whether or not we’re moving to Pittsburgh, whether or not anyone can tell that my pants are falling offContinue reading “oh, snap. am i kind of in love with running?”

are you ready, kids? NO. or: maybe the krusty krab pizza IS the pizza for you and me

According to Spotify, the very first song I listened to in 2018 was “Bikini Bottom Day” from the SpongeBob SquarePants musical. Jump out of bed Mix up a breakfast for my favorite pet snail Full steam ahead The S.S. I Am Ready is about to set sail Once upon a time in college, I went with myContinue reading “are you ready, kids? NO. or: maybe the krusty krab pizza IS the pizza for you and me”

running and rocking and rolling

Well, I’m running down the road Trying to loosen my load In 2019, I’m running a half-marathon. Alongside my parents and one of my best friends, I am officially signed up for April’s Star Wars Rival Run at Walt Disney World. I’m so excited I can barely stand it. I haven’t been to Disney WorldContinue reading “running and rocking and rolling”