i am bored, so i’m going to pick a literary fight with my college self

What follows is something I found lurking in my Documents folder. (I’m so bored, guys.) It was saved on August 8, 2010, and is entitled, “A Foreward That May Never Be Read.” JOKE’S ON YOU, ASSHOLE, I’M READING IT, AND I’M PUTTING IT ON THE INTERNET. Here we go: Who the heck writes a memoirContinue reading “i am bored, so i’m going to pick a literary fight with my college self”

depression, just… not the time, okay?

Missing me one place, search another; I stop somewhere, waiting for you. Gods, FUCK. THIS. (Did you know that you were looking for me? I did not know that I was looking for you.) Team, I had a vision for today. To be fair, it’s a glorious April afternoon. I’m sure many of us had a plan,Continue reading “depression, just… not the time, okay?”

of limits and imaginary lines

Uncle Walt again, dear friends: From this hour I ordain myself loos’d of limits and imaginary lines, Going where I list, my own master total and absolute, Listening to others, considering well what they say, Pausing, searching, receiving, contemplating, Gently, but with undeniable will, divesting myself of the holds that would hold me. I inhaleContinue reading “of limits and imaginary lines”

okay, but for real this time

This isn’t good for me anymore. I am writing myself raw lately, because I am afraid that you will forget about me. (This has always been my biggest fear.) I am double checking my WordPress views and my Facebook likes over and over and over again, because those little thumbs up’s and little hearts feel soContinue reading “okay, but for real this time”

it’s still the same old story… (or: as usual, go to hell, bipolar disorder, okay?)

And it is an old refrain, to be sure: They are just around because they feel sorry for you. They are around because they are worried that you’re going to hurt yourself if you’re alone. They do not enjoy you. They do not love you. You are a burden.  (You said that to me once. IContinue reading “it’s still the same old story… (or: as usual, go to hell, bipolar disorder, okay?)”

bi, bi, non-bi: december feels, and oh, look, i’m talking about walt whitman again

This piece originally performed at The Come Up Show ATL on December 20, 2019.  Greetings, fellow cool kids. So, my name is Dani Herd, and I am bipolar, bisexual, and non-binary, aka “bi, bi, non-bi.” These are my adventures.  Bi #1: I’ve known about the bipolar II the longest. This month is actually the threeContinue reading “bi, bi, non-bi: december feels, and oh, look, i’m talking about walt whitman again”

an important walk i once took

[CW: self-harm] March 8, 2010 I just want to see the gay penguins. Central Park is BIG. I had no idea! I should have known. Didn’t all those joggers and stroller-walkers and assorted predators on Law & Order: SVU make their home in this park? How would a smaller park have possibly contained them all? This homeContinue reading “an important walk i once took”

in which it’s about a month until the rise of skywalker, and, unsurprisingly, i have a lot of feelings

I really hate when things end. I still remember just about everything about where I was when I first saw the initial trailer for Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens. I had been tasked to write about the experience for the Atlanta-based variety show Scene Missing Presents. I remember my heart pounding, my palmsContinue reading “in which it’s about a month until the rise of skywalker, and, unsurprisingly, i have a lot of feelings”

i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much

When I was in grade school, my very sweet and wonderful and supportive teachers used to write things in my yearbook like: “I can’t wait to see you onstage at the Oscars someday!” Which is a very kind thing to write in a theatre dork’s yearbook. But I also kind of bought it, gang. I’veContinue reading “i am probably never going to win an oscar, or why i loved thor in endgame so much”

in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.

Good news, nerds! runDisney just published the Digital Event Guide for the Star Wars Rival Run Weekend. SOMETHING NEW TO MEMORIZE YAY. The fact that’s the most deeply burned into my brain regarding logistics for the Sunday morning half marathon? The fact that runners are encouraged to be bright-eyed, bushy-tailed, and all-aboard official event transportationContinue reading “in which our intrepid heroine rambles on about theatre and running. again.”