10 minutes on the clock. What comes out? First of all, my pants feel too fucking tight and I'm annoyed about it and if anyone in January puts pressure on me to lose my quarantine weight, I will throw them off a bridge, ARE WE CLEAR? Marine mammals have blubber to keep them warm, to … Continue reading ten minute ramble, just to see
FEELINGS
that shines from you (i’ve probably already used that as a title, haven’t it? dammit, dani)
The plays (for now!) are done! Nothing to write but blogs and fics and grad school essays! How am I coping, you might be wondering? Well, I've watched Rocketman three nights in a row, for a starter. Here's the thing: I just... fucking love this movie. I never expected it to hit me the way … Continue reading that shines from you (i’ve probably already used that as a title, haven’t it? dammit, dani)
a promise lives within you now
May it be an evening starShines down upon youMay it be when darkness fallsYour heart will be trueYou walk a lonely roadOh, how far you are from home I think the happiest I've ever been in my entire life was when I was in middle school and discovering The Lord of the Rings for the … Continue reading a promise lives within you now
breaking down my current spotify “on repeat” playlist
Happy Sunday! I'm trying to get you to give me money, so let's get to know each other a little better, shall we? My musical taste is that of a fantastical nightmare creature. Enjoy these selections from my Spotify "On Repeat" playlist: "Break My Stride" - Matthew Wilder Y'all, I DO NOT KNOW. I woke … Continue reading breaking down my current spotify “on repeat” playlist
queer-simodo
(Title courtesy of my dear friend Kati Grace.) Hello, I am intoxicated and I can't stop watching Todrick Hall's "CinderFella"from 2012. My name is Dani and I am gay. (I don't know everything that means yet. I am trying.) When I was in high school, I loved my best friend and didn't know what to … Continue reading queer-simodo
september bi, bi, non-bi: and i think it’s gonna be a long, long time OR: fuck you, j.k. rowling
Originally performed for The Come Up Show ATL's birthday show on Friday September 25, 2020. CW: internalized transphobia and mention of She Who Must Not Be Named. Guard your beautiful heart. Non-bi, and only non-bi this month: Related to absolutely nothing: it’s Mark Hamill’s birthday today and I want to raise a glass for a … Continue reading september bi, bi, non-bi: and i think it’s gonna be a long, long time OR: fuck you, j.k. rowling
hallelujah, by and by:
So, it seems increasingly likely The Thing isn't going to happen. (Okay, we can talk about it: honestly, I was trying to skip town and perform at an international theme park for a year. I am nothing if not terribly predictable.) I am contending now with the reality of staying. Of moving forward even if … Continue reading hallelujah, by and by:
the queer kid power of nicknames
In high school drama, my nickname was "Hero." I didn't really earn it in any meaningful way. Our teacher called attendance that first morning of ninth grade with the instructions: "And if you want to be called by another name... if you want to be, I don't know, Hero or something..." So, when he called … Continue reading the queer kid power of nicknames
sundays and forever
Sunday morning: Wake up with a headache. Feed the cat. Make the bed. Order a bagel (again). Do all the dishes by hand. Twitch nervously at the keyboard. Get sad. (Always, it seems, I'm so fucking sorry.) Put on the theme to Jurassic Park (again) and try to feel something good. It is just now 10 am. … Continue reading sundays and forever
i don’t always know what this is.
Some days it feels like this is all I remember how to do. To start crying from that place of aching emptiness, from the most pitiful pity parties every thrown on this green Earth. I start crying and then I come here to tell you about it. I can't stop telling you. I know I … Continue reading i don’t always know what this is.
once upon a june
June. I was going to get my shit together in June. It would have been six months since Everything and that's enough time, right? Half a year to wallow and to feel sorry for myself and to punish myself and to be a sad little chubby seal on my sad little chubby seal-rock. I mean, … Continue reading once upon a june
leaving hogwarts, part II
"Leaving Hogwarts" is still on my Spotify On Repeat playlist right now and damn. Feelings. (John Williams is our greatest living artist, fight me.) ANYWAY: If I had access just now to a Time Turner, I think I'd just go back as far as July 2007. I would go back to the floor of Border's, … Continue reading leaving hogwarts, part II
