an important detour, and a bit of a love story

Sometimes I come here because I just need the sense of accomplishment. Like, I’m going to be super honest with you- I don’t really feel like I have anything compelling to tell you today, but fuck, I really need to do something. (There is no going back.) It is just past 11 am, and my eyesContinue reading “an important detour, and a bit of a love story”

get in, loser, we’re going to love ourselves

I’ll get into the “why” and “how” soon enough (too soon), but the point is that I very well might be getting a car in three weeks. I have never owned a car before. My driver’s license test took place on my 21st birthday and, after wobbling my way through a spectacularly pathetic attempt atContinue reading “get in, loser, we’re going to love ourselves”

july bi, bi, non-bi: here we go again

(I never know if this thing is a declaration or a confessional.) (What I might say to you:) Bi #1: Let me get you caught up. In 2016, I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. I have to remind myself all the time that it is an Illness, and not aContinue reading “july bi, bi, non-bi: here we go again”

and what’s on the other side

Perhaps unsurprisingly, I am thinking about frogs today. And not just Kermit, but we’ll get to him. (Always.) No, I am mostly and vainly thinking of myself for the past nearly seven months. I’ve been saying for a long time that I feel like I’ve been having a months-long panic attack that began on MondayContinue reading “and what’s on the other side”

ask not what your star wars can do for you

Hey Star Wars, It’s me, again. It’s Dani. So, I feel like I’ve been kind of a jerk to you for the past couple of months, and I’m here to make peace. The night that I saw Rise of Skywalker… it was in the middle of one of the most complicated weeks of my life to date.Continue reading “ask not what your star wars can do for you”

the validation monster

CW: Self-hatred. This one was hard. Go with caution, my friend.  I do not feel like anything today. I feel like I am floating just outside of my body. I am struggling to recognize anything about myself, because who ever was I? I am struggling to recognize these blue-grey eyes, always nearly aching from someContinue reading “the validation monster”

bi, bi, non-bi: the april b-side

(I am lucky enough to have a monthly segment with The Come Up Show Atl. It’s called “bi, bi, non-bi,” and is basically a check-in of where I’m at in my bipolar, bisexual (?!), non-binary adventures. What follows is the piece I didn’t read at April’s show. Thanks for being here.) Hey! I made youContinue reading “bi, bi, non-bi: the april b-side”