CW: Depression, and where it goes sometimes. Be safe, friends. Today was a Good Day. I put on my mask and washed my hands and picked up nice coffee and pastries with my good, good roommate. I ate those pastries and drank that coffee while I looked at a dear friend's face and heard a … Continue reading won’t resent, won’t despair
Because it feels like the end of the world a lot, here in my head. (Forgive me this start. I find myself desperate to write something today. Something Good. Something Meaningful.) I turned 30 years old on May 31, 2019. The summer that followed was among the harder ones of my life. It's always hard … Continue reading happy birthday, good omens
CW: Self-hatred. This one was hard. Go with caution, my friend. I do not feel like anything today. I feel like I am floating just outside of my body. I am struggling to recognize anything about myself, because who ever was I? I am struggling to recognize these blue-grey eyes, always nearly aching from some … Continue reading the validation monster
Breathe. This is what I write to myself in my planner lately: Run (ha, sure, we'll see, you sad sack), find a job, figure out your fucking shit, get yourself together, stop being such a waste of space, STOP BEING A FUCKING FAILURE, YOU STUPID FUCKING IDIOT. Breathe. I cannot. I think I might be … Continue reading i don’t know. i’m sad.