The plays (for now!) are done! Nothing to write but blogs and fics and grad school essays! How am I coping, you might be wondering? Well, I've watched Rocketman three nights in a row, for a starter. Here's the thing: I just... fucking love this movie. I never expected it to hit me the way … Continue reading that shines from you (i’ve probably already used that as a title, haven’t it? dammit, dani)
queer
i’m gay: (just a little thing)
Sort of like a poem, really. Originally posted to Patreon on Halloween 2020: I have spoken it before with uncertainty and fear. Um, I think I might be gay? I have spoken it as an in-advance apology, still figuring things out. I'm really worried I might just be gay. I have whispered it joyfully into … Continue reading i’m gay: (just a little thing)
on halloween costumes
Childhood. Oh, a Disney princess. Fucking every year. No shame, Disney princesses are great. Adolescence. I vividly remember this one Halloween- I think I was 13?- when I decided I HAD TO BE SEXY. A SEXY WITCH. Fuck, how gross is it that 13-year-olds ever feel like they need to be sexy for any reason … Continue reading on halloween costumes
the queer kid power of nicknames
In high school drama, my nickname was "Hero." I didn't really earn it in any meaningful way. Our teacher called attendance that first morning of ninth grade with the instructions: "And if you want to be called by another name... if you want to be, I don't know, Hero or something..." So, when he called … Continue reading the queer kid power of nicknames
july bi, bi, non-bi: here we go again
(I never know if this thing is a declaration or a confessional.) (What I might say to you:) Bi #1: Let me get you caught up. In 2016, I was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. I have to remind myself all the time that it is an Illness, and not a … Continue reading july bi, bi, non-bi: here we go again
most good things about me came from sailor moon
HERE'S THE NERDIEST THING ABOUT ME: (PROBABLY.) The first time I wrote for the consumption of the Internet was back when I was in either middle school or high school. I had two published short stories and two published poems on a Sailor Moon fan site. YEAH. I WROTE SAILOR MOON FAN POETRY, AND I CANNOT … Continue reading most good things about me came from sailor moon
happy birthday, good omens
Because it feels like the end of the world a lot, here in my head. (Forgive me this start. I find myself desperate to write something today. Something Good. Something Meaningful.) I turned 30 years old on May 31, 2019. The summer that followed was among the harder ones of my life. It's always hard … Continue reading happy birthday, good omens
bi, bi, non-bi: the april b-side
(I am lucky enough to have a monthly segment with The Come Up Show Atl. It's called "bi, bi, non-bi," and is basically a check-in of where I'm at in my bipolar, bisexual (?!), non-binary adventures. What follows is the piece I didn't read at April's show. Thanks for being here.) Hey! I made you … Continue reading bi, bi, non-bi: the april b-side
why didn’t i know?, or a brief study in neil perry
Why do the things that mean the most to us as kids mean the most to us? (I have a lot of questions lately.) It's all some grand tapestry of a conspiracy, of DESTINY in my mind: Walt Whitman and I, each coming into the world many May 31's a part. I don't have courage … Continue reading why didn’t i know?, or a brief study in neil perry
of unreturn’d love
Sometimes with one I love I fill myself with rage for fear I effuse unreturn’d love, But now I think there is no unreturn’d love, the pay is certain one way or another (I loved a certain person ardently and my love was not return’d, Yet out of that I have written these songs). (Uncle … Continue reading of unreturn’d love
the suggestion of flannel, or: snapshot of a maybe-lesbian
Today a woman in a bow tie touched me on the arm as she walked past me, and I was thrilled, because I wondered, "Oh, snap. Does she know?" And thought secondarily: "WHAT A FUCKING RELIEF." Here is the evidence. Myself, me, February 2, 2020: An inventory. (Sorry in advance, Shakespeare.) Item: One head of … Continue reading the suggestion of flannel, or: snapshot of a maybe-lesbian
bi, bi, non-bi: january woes, or the one with ALL THE PROFANITY
CW: This piece deals with self-harm and just general being a mess. If that isn't your heart's jam right now, I understand if you need to go take a break. Greetings, fellow cool kids. My name is Dani, and I am bipolar, bisexual, and non-binary, aka bi, bi, non-bi. These are my adventures. Prologue: Y’all, … Continue reading bi, bi, non-bi: january woes, or the one with ALL THE PROFANITY
