more adventures in running: dealing with anxiety and remembering my star wars motivations

We still don’t know anything about my partner’s grad school situation, and I’m living in a worry-bubble. If you know me in real life, you’ve probably noticed that I only ever talk about two things lately: worrying about grad school or training for my half-marathon. Obsessing over the half-marathon is absolutely more pleasant than frettingContinue reading “more adventures in running: dealing with anxiety and remembering my star wars motivations”

leave rose tico alone

I don’t have anything to say that isn’t going to be said more eloquently (hopefully) over the coming days. But we should address the things that make us angry, and the things that make us feel sick to our stomachs. We should address the things that we feel like we shouldn’t have to keep addressing.Continue reading “leave rose tico alone”

always a kylo, never a rey

I don’t ever intend to make New Year’s resolutions. I have a pretty obsessive personality, so sitting down to list out all of the ways in which I judge I should improve myself in January feels like a bad idea. I don’t need a holiday devoted to contemplating the passage of time PLUS enthusiastic self-improvement.Continue reading “always a kylo, never a rey”

“you got cute in my star wars!!” or, in defense of porgs

Less-than-creative/progressive minds out there might call me the nerdy version of the much maligned “basic bitch.” I like the cute, comfy trappings that accompany geekdom. Like, sure. Of course I’m here for the gripping, epic stories and well-written, complex characters. I’m here for adventure and space and swashbuckling and dinosaurs and saving the world andContinue reading ““you got cute in my star wars!!” or, in defense of porgs”

throwback video essay: a first reaction to the force awakens teaser, 2014

Facebook reminded me this morning that it’s been three years to the day since the very first teaser for┬áThe Force Awakens offered us our very first glimpses of Rey, Finn, Poe, BB-8, and all of our new far-far-away besties. What. A. DAY. So, my reaction to that trailer was… intense? I had the opportunity toContinue reading “throwback video essay: a first reaction to the force awakens teaser, 2014”

thank you, carrie

Throughout the winter of 2016, my brain had the capacity to obsess over exactly two things: mental health and Star Wars. In late November, I was unable to anticipate anything that wasn’t either opening night of Rogue One or my first appointment with a psychiatrist. Here was the timeline. On Wednesday November 30, I performedContinue reading “thank you, carrie”

video essay: “hope is the thing with lightsabers”

So, here’s the essay that inspired the creation of this blog, as well as gave it its name. This essay was first performed onstage at the Highland Inn Ballroom in Atlanta, GA on November 30, 2016. This essay was a part of the awesome live lit show Scene Missing. Thank you to Jason Mallory forContinue reading “video essay: “hope is the thing with lightsabers””